thoughts

after this period of being alone, i'd realise too late, how much i was in love with you back then, and still am. a pity that i didnt express it enough to you. i do want to woo you again, but i dont know if it's something i've done or didnt do/try enough, as it seems like you're done with us. maybe it was since a long time back and its just me being silly, and that's okay. the only difference between now and when we broke up is probably just the acceptance that brooding wont bring you back.

one of the reasons i wanted the break up was for you to be independent, and i'm really proud that you're making tremendous progress, like doing things that interests you, making new connections, achieving your own goals. most importantly, you seem happy. and i can make do with that.

they say time heals, but fuck that. i will still love you madly everyday. i will miss you like crazy every passing moment. i will regret the chances i threw, and not letting you know how much i was in love with you. i will miss everything we had and could ever have. thank you for being the best half that i could ever asked for. 

i'd remember there was one night when we were at your place, lying on your bed upstairs together and sad sad town. our conversation was something like this:

you: you know i would always love you, even if i found someone else

me: that's what you would think now, when the time comes you would probably gotten over me already

you: you have to find someone too okay?

me: maybe. or maybe i wont. maybe i'll just wait for you

i guess it turns out that its me who would always love you. maybe i'll wait till the day a ring is put on your finger.

even then i'd still want the best for you, and if the best isnt me, i hope you will find him and stay happy, kii.

love,

bii

P.S. i still have the express ticket out of angytown, could i still use it :')